Beckies Spot

It’s New Year’s Eve.  The last day in 2008, tomorrow commences a whole new year.  I don’t believe in resolutions, because they set you up to fail.  But keeping with my personal quote of “expectations begat let downs,” for 2009, I have set some expectations.  I will not allow myself to fail.  The very real fear of failure will motivate me.  My friends, motivation and determination go a long way.

I wanted to write about this past year.  While it hasn’t all been bad, this past year was certainly more bad than good.  To everything there is a reason and a saeason, right?  Here was my year in review.

*Attended a Toga party to ring in the new year where no one but the hosts wore togas.

*Started working in Acute Care at LSH.

*Kristin moved in.

*Went back to school.

*Zoe was born.

*Natasha was born

*Got an obscenely large hot pink Monkey for Valentine’s day.

*Scott came to NY for a visit from KC.

*Daddy passed away.

*Tom came to be with me for Daddy’s funeral.

*I came in contact with family I hadn’t seen or heard from in years.

* Kristin moved out.

*Went to watch Jan graduate from Houghton.

*Survived my first Father’s Day without Daddy.  Barely.

*Started working everywhere I could find a paying job to make ends meet.

*Went to a party at my sister M’s house that changed my life.

*Mandi passed away.

*Went to Waldameer Park.  Twice.

*I rode the X-Scream at Waldameer.  I learned that I hate it, but at least I know for sure.

*Brent and I went to KKW together for the first time. (And I never once sat on the time out stool.  )

*Had a cancer scare.

*Turned 25,26 and 27 all in September.

*Celebrated those birthdays all in the wine tent at the Festival of Grapes.

*I love you.

*Started attending CCW Church again.

* Had surgery to remove a blockage, endometriosis and masses from my girl parts.

*Brent and I moved into our own place together. Without any parents.

*I became ashamed of my country.

*Had surgery to remove my gallbladder.

*Had the first Thanksgiving without Daddy.

*Picketed the Holiday season.

*Celebrated Christmas anyway.

*Found out I am going to be an aunt. Again.

The year all together definately seems depressing.  But not everything was terrible.  I learned a lot about myself, about my family and who my friends really are.  I have began an endevour that will be an amazing success by the end of next year.  I have made plans and set expectations of myself.  And you know, I am looking so very forward to a new beginning.

May 2009 be better than 2008 was.